Sharing God’s Message
Have you ever had a dream that seems so surreal that you just have to do it? Honestly, I have and I am so mesmerized by them that I feel that urge to follow them. That is the power of God and that is why I am sharing my love for God with everyone.
After my cancer treatments, I struggled really bad with PTSD and depression, there are still days that I let my anxiety get the best of me and let my thoughts take over. It wasn’t until I could no longer feel anything that I decided that I needed to change my life. I needed to let go the animosity built up and find a way to be happy again.
Philippians 4:6-7 says “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything” this verse speaks to me on many levels because I was a worrier, I worried about everything and would never see the positive in anything especially after my treatments were over. It wasn’t until my aunt shared the word of Christ with me and I truly believed it, that I truly put my trust in God.
I found God’s message for me when I was so beyond depressed that it didn’t seem real at first and for a while I did fight it. It wasn’t until I moved out of my parents house before I really understood what was meant for my life. You see, I’m a people pleaser, no matter how I am feeling I will put someone else’s needs before mine and honestly there is nothing really wrong with that but I was not healing. I was taking on so many emotions that I had no idea who I was anymore. Which is one of the many reasons why my depression got so bad. One night, I had a dream of my life. I wasn’t stuck, I was happy and I was living life to the fullest everyday. That is what I wanted and that dream seemed so real that I knew it was possible and I would do anything to make that happen.
Joel 2:25 “God can restore what is broken and change it into something amazing. All you need is faith” I came to the realization that, that dream was a message from God. He was telling me that I’m broken now but if I follow him and keep my faith then I will be happy and live that life I wanted. At this point, I had already been going to church and was feeling God’s power but I wouldn’t listen, my stubbornness was telling me that it wasn’t real . This dream was my turning point, I woke up and prayed and thanked God for giving me another chance, to finally feel something other than darkness and I was ready for a new me.
I don’t share that story much but it is so relevant to society today that I felt the need to share it. We live in a day and age of living for others and not for ourselves. We are so concerned about what anyone thinks that we don’t just stop and listen to our hearts. We go through the motions of life and it flashes before our eyes. I know I am guilty of living life in the fast lane, and I am working on that. I’ve been learning to enjoy life more and it feels great. The biggest reason why we live life in the fast lane is because, at least this is for me, we are scared to actually just take that time and stop to look around. I spent so long surviving that I forgot what living felt like. It is a habit that I need to break and I have been working on it. I can tell you though, when I am not letting my anxiety take over and I just live, life is so much more beautiful.
By sharing God’s message, I am choosing a life that is amazing The world around us is full of hate when we should be showing each other love and compassion. These days we look up to supermodels or reality tv stars when we should be looking to God and his message. And that is my goal, sharing the love of God with those in need and even with those who already feel the love of God. We need to stop living the life of someone else but instead cherish the life we were given and cherish the one who gave us this chance at life.
We all have our own purpose in life, whether it be teaching, being the president, or even just helping others. God did not intend us to be so hateful towards each other instead he put us on earth to make a difference. To be the change. We cannot sit back and let others tell us how to live. We should be listening to God and following his path. Because that is how you live.
I’m sitting here preaching about the love and power of God and I realize that it is hard, I mean it took me months of fighting God’s will and honestly, if I didn’t have that dream I wouldn’t be typing this. I almost gave up on my blog, I didn’t know what to write about anymore. I beat cancer, I beat depression and PTSD, I live a natural lifestyle but what was next? And then it hit me, I want to bring love back into this world. I am so tired of the hate and disgust we show each other that I am going to make a change. I have no room in my heart for hate and this is my way of showing others that it is possible.
These next steps are what I used to find my faith and how I put my life in the hands of God an honestly it was the best decision of my life. So here it goes, this is how I figured out how to live the life that God intended for me:
1.Pray- This is kind of obvious, right? Well to a certain extent it is, of course we pray to ask God to get us through a test or praying for the safety of our loved ones but that is not the kind of praying I am talking about. This picture below is a prayer that I needed when I was at my lowest, so simply start of with this. Let God know that you are hurting and need his help to heal you. There is nothing wrong with admitting that you are broken, but in order to make that step towards healing, you have to be the one to make that step. Pray to God and let his love take over your heart. I promise, if you pray daily to God he will answer you. God doesn’t care what you have done in the past, he cares that you see what you need to change. He will guide you through these changes but you have to take that chance, you have to redeem yourself first.
2. Stop living in the past- It’s cliche but honestly, what is in the past needs to stay there. You can’t keep living in the past but most importantly you can’t drag anyone back with you. I learned this the hard way with my dad, before I was saved, we used to fight a lot many times our fights would be over something little but then it would escalate to something more because we both would bring up the past and throw it in each other’s faces. When I was saved, I learned to let the past go. There are a few things that I definitely need to let go of but each day I am improving myself and learning to live in the present. The past is in the past, stop living in it and enjoy the moment.
3. Forgive yourself- I cannot stress this enough, you are not your past actions so don’t keep punishing yourself for them. Forgive yourself and give yourself that chance to grow. I struggle a lot with forgiving myself, I over think things an let things that happened years ago bother me. You have to remind yourself that if God can forgive you, then you can forgive you. Don’t bottle things up in your head instead let it go and keep going. Forgiving yourself is important because if you don’t it is toxic. Your guilt, hatred, and reliving mistakes over and over again is unhealthy and you will never be happy if you don’t forgive yourself. When you find it in your heart to forgive yourself, you will grow in your faith an finally learn to be happy.
4. Read your Bible- This goes along with praying, practice reading your Bible everyday to understand the word of God. I had a hard time reading my Bible because I was afraid that I wasn’t understanding it. It took me quite some time to actually realize that everyone understands the Bible differently. How I read something could be completely different from how someone else reads it and that’s okay. The idea of following your Faith is knowing that God has a plan for you and it isn’t the same plan for someone else. Read your Bible, everyday and translate it to how you understand God’s word. Don’t worry what others think, the only ones who know what you are thinking are you and God.
5. Follow God, Always- Personally, when I follow God my life seems so much more lively. I don’t feel the depression or the anxiety as much and I am able to actually be happy. Putting God before everything is one of the best ways to live. Each morning, I try to spend some time with God whether it be reading my bible, praying or just listening to worship music and doing nothing else. I find it when I follow God, everyday, all the time my life just seems so much better.
These five points are what I have been trying to do to Find my Faith and live life. I have never been happier and honestly that’s all I need. I spent majority of my life trying to live a life that someone else wanted and not what God intended and not what I wanted. When I found God, it was as if the sun shone brighter and the sky was bluer. Following my heart and giving it all to God. My message to you is to just pray. Pray to God that you want to give His word a chance and allow him to take the darkness away. Coming from someone who struggles with depression and anxiety when I put my life into God’s hands, I felt that power and love of his. My journey in life is to share God’s message and help those in need. I want to bring love back into the world and God has given me that second chance at life. I will continue to follow my faith and help others find their’s because that is what God has asked me to do.