Best Moments of 2018
2018 has been a crazy year, in fact it was full of many ups and downs. I made new friends and reconnected with past friends. I overcame many obstacles and kicked cancer square in the ass (excuse my language). I made it through my first semester back in school full time after taking a year off and I finally fell in love with the person I am supposed to be.
2018 will be a year I can never forget and what better way to remember it by sharing my best moments of 2018. These moments range from my summer adventure to overcoming the terrors of PTSD and cancer. I am so grateful to be here today sharing all of these wonderful memories, life lessons and of course my journey of finding myself. So without further ado… here are my 10 best moments of 2018!!!
Finishing my Blanket
10. Many of you know that I have been working on knitting my blanket for a long time, I started way before I got diagnosed with cancer but once I started cancer treatments, I had no choice but to put my blanket making on hold. This year, well at the end of October, I finally finished it and I am absolutely in love with it. I had put a lot of work into it over the past few months and after staying up late for a few nights, I finished it. It now lays on my bed everyday and it felt like an amazing accomplishment.
My Second Tattoo
9. One of the most exciting times in life is doing something out of the ordinary. For me, growing up, I was the one to always end up doing crazy things but getting tattoos was something I never imagined I would do. I got my first tattoo when I was 18, it is a lotus flower with a breast cancer ribbon in honor of my grandma for defeating the battle with cancer. I won’t lie, it hurt a lot… I didn’t even want to finish it, I was fine with having half a flower on my ankle and never getting it done but my mom kinda held me down in the chair to finish it. After going through chemo treatments and radiation, I decided that I wanted to get another tattoo this time on my ribs. I helped design it and when I was getting it done, I fell asleep (that isn’t the case for everyone). My tattoo is something that explains who I am and all that I have been through so of course it is one of my best moments. It will always be my favorite tattoo.
Car Accident or Remission Surprise?
8. It was quite a journey finding out that my cancer was completely in remission, actually it took getting in a car accident to find out. Yes, getting in the car accident wasn’t my favorite memories, nor was riding in the ambulance but that feeling when all of your worries are gone after hearing the best news in the world is an amazing feeling. At that moment, for the first time in a long time did I cry happy tears, it felt as if the weight of the world was off my back and I finally conquered this nightmare.
21st Birthday or Bust?
7. I spent my 19th and 20th birthday in the hospital so I made it a mission to not spend my 21st birthday in the hospital too unless it was for something totally worth it (shh… don’t tell my parents I said that). This year, I was in Utah at the DoTERRA Dream Convention over my birthday so I definitely had a great time with my parents and some amazing friends. It was an amazing feeling not being in the hospital and actually getting to live my life. Plus, who wouldn’t want to enjoy a delicious pina colada and some cheesecake.
3.0? I got this
6. Deciding to get an engineering degree was something I thought long and hard about before I went into college. I figured what is school if you aren’t challenged a bit. And so that is what I started going to college for. Deciding to stay in school while going through cancer treatments was probably not one of my best decisions but I am who I am and wouldn’t back down from a challenge. This last semester was a lot bigger challenge than I expected, in fact I struggled a lot. I struggled with understanding content and doing homework and to top it all off, I got really bad depression. After busting my butt off, just to not fail any classes, I anxiously waited for my final grades to come through and by the grace of God… I got a 3.0!! It was so exciting, I didn’t even expect it to happen. A total surprise.
Ready for Some Sleep
5. Having a port in is one of the most convenient but most annoying things ever invented. Like it was so much easier getting chemo but I wanted that sucker out the first day I got it in. I couldn’t sleep on my left side, I couldn’t do anything fun, most of the time it was just a pain in the butt. The day I got my port out was so exciting, I wanted it out more than anything and he second I was allowed to get it out I took that chance. I remember after the surgery my mom had taken me to IHOP and she had left to go to the bathroom. I was still a little drugged up from the anesthesia but I told everyone around that my port was gone while my mom was gone, I’m pretty sure I Face Timed my sister as well. It was just an exciting day. Plus I slept like a baby that night.
Chemo Graduation Party
4. This almost made my number one, but I had more adventures after this that were bigger memories but this was a super exciting day. So during chemo, I wasn’t allowed to go to buffets and while I don’t normally go to them, I am a big fan of the salad bars at them (yes, I know….I eat leafy greens XD) I invited all my family and my best friend and it was just an awesome night. I was super happy to see my best friend and having all of my family come was amazing. I really had a good night, plus I really liked that salad.
Chemo and Radiation Graduation
3. I decided to combine both of these days because they were both really special to me. I had been through a lot, in fact I didn’t want to finish my chemo treatments and my radiation treatments made me so tired that I couldn’t work as much as I normally did, which was annoying. When the day came the I finally finished chemo, I was just excited to be done. I HATED chemo, like I understood it was helping me but it just made me feel really gross. When I finished radiation, I won’t lie I felt free. I just gave the last ten months of my life fighting something that I never expected to happen and I was finally done. It was an amazing day. Both days were
2. Going through depression is rough, especially when you share your surviorship story to everyone. I was so beyond depressed that I didn’t even want to talk to me. I spent most of the year fighting and didn’t even bother to take notice in my mental health. I almost dropped out of school and quit my jobs. It was really bad. At the beginning of August, I had started to notice that my smile was fake and I felt stuck. My Aunt had invited me to church and I figured it couldn’t hurt to go anymore than what I was already hurting so I took her up on her offer and I’ve been going ever since. That first service changed my life and I couldn’t be more thankful. God saved my life and at that moment, I finally felt the darkness leave. Going to church and putting my faith back in God really changed my life for the better.
Alaska or Bust?
- Drum Roll, please!!! My best moment of 2018 was my trip to Alaska. I was waiting for that trip since I graduated high school and it was worth the wait. I LOVE Alaska, it is the most beautiful place I have ever been to and I just fell in love with it while I was there. I love it so much I am even considering doing a semester “abroad” and the University of Alaska Fairbanks. You can read all about my trip by clicking this link and you will know why I fell in love with such a beautiful state.
Well there you have it, my 10 best moments from 2018. There was a lot going on this year, many ups and downs but I am looking forward to 2019 and all that life has to offer.